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You know I don't know why I feel like just spilling my personal life on Mac-Forums...I guess I find it fun or something...Or maybe I'm just that crazy. Like Rays manager Joe Maddon, I'm a different breed, I'm extremely different..But here goes.
I disappeared for a couple of days because I had an absolute meltdown a couple of days ago, I mean all of my stress, the things on my mind and so forth , hit me all at once.
I'm 24 years old and working at a $7 an hour job calling people for surveys FOR WHAT AGAIN? Oh RIGHT! A "Liberal Arts Degree". Look, I'm not knocking having one, and yeah I'm six classes away from getting the stupid thing, but look at it from my perspective:
*My dad and girlfriend/fiancee/whatever...want to sell this place or rent it out to me so they can have their own place an hour or so up the road. Ok not a big deal at all.
*I'm 24, going to be 25 next year. To get my degree in Automotive Service, which is what I want so I can be a shop supervisor, means I'd be 27 when I graduated - Three years shy of 30.
Look, I'm not looking for sympathy or anything...When I discovered my passion for cars five years ago, it's all I've wanted to do for a living. I get an enormous satisfaction out of fixing something, especially if it's challenging. Do you know how prideful I feel driving my Jaguar? No, it's not because it's a Jaguar, it's because I spent over 60 hours of my life doing intricate work to make something run.
Because of the damage I've done to my body from drugs and alcohol in the past, I'm quite expensive. What I mean is I always need to be eating and I need to have money to pay for my fistful o' pills. It is the most stressful feeling in the world when you're up til 3 A.M. crunching numbers to try to make ends meet.
I can't even afford to take a freakin' girl out on a date. Yeah I constantly buy and sell Apples, but you know why? It's to pay for my pills and bills....I like that..."I need money to pay for the pills and bills..." Anyways I digress...
I want to make as much money as I possibly can before I go to trade school. I'd really like to stay here in Florida instead of moving back up North. It would be awesome to have this decent sized house and the drive? I'd like to get a motorcycle for that. It's all about priorities, and I'm sorry - A Liberal Arts degree seems pretty darned useless to me right now. Yeah if I was going to teach, or do something that involved more College education, it's a great start. Let's be realistic here guys, I'M GOING TO BE WORKING AT A DEALERSHIP. I'M NOT GOING TO GET ANY YOUNGER. I NEED TO (Bleep) OR GET OFF THE POT. I can't even study anymore, I can't. I feel like I'm wasting time, wasting valuable time that I need to actually better my life. I need something more than a piece of paper saying "Hey Jaguar, you wasted 6 years of your life listening to other people convince you to find another profession while trying to get this."
I want to make money, start a family, have a house of my own, and yeah maybe for a lot of people on here reading this you could say "Hey, it's 7 more months, finish it out." Sorry, I'm tired of being tired and weak all the time because I don't want to eat all of my dad's/fiancee's food that they buy (She quit her job btw lol.) because of my hypoglycemia....amongst other things....And no I can't live off of Pizza and Burgers either, or work and go to school and never sleep. I need sleep, a lot of it - or I get extremely weak. I know my mother is going to be extremely upset and disappointed in me because she paid for this semester of college, but you know what? I can't make everyone happy and that's all I've been doing throughout my whole life. Jaguar just does stuff to make other people happy. I want to do something that I WANT TO DO for a change.
Yes I'm skipping school tomorrow because I'm going to find a good job. I'm going to do good in my life finally. You know when I was the happiest down here in Florida? When I was getting freakin carts at Wal-Mart planning to go to trade school. But no I had to let my mother convince me and go back to college for some meaningless degree. That's my rant. Look maybe a Liberal Arts degree and finishing it means something to you guys, but look - I've had 6 years to think it over, and experience it. I'm at peace with not getting it.
P.S. : Looks like McCain is getting smoked, eh? Palin's $150,000 worth of clothes...*Shakes head* I'm not starting political stuff either...But man that woman has been nothing but a headache for that man ever since he picked her. And I'm not pro-Obama either...I'm a Libertarian...Ron Paul all the way...=\
I disappeared for a couple of days because I had an absolute meltdown a couple of days ago, I mean all of my stress, the things on my mind and so forth , hit me all at once.
I'm 24 years old and working at a $7 an hour job calling people for surveys FOR WHAT AGAIN? Oh RIGHT! A "Liberal Arts Degree". Look, I'm not knocking having one, and yeah I'm six classes away from getting the stupid thing, but look at it from my perspective:
*My dad and girlfriend/fiancee/whatever...want to sell this place or rent it out to me so they can have their own place an hour or so up the road. Ok not a big deal at all.
*I'm 24, going to be 25 next year. To get my degree in Automotive Service, which is what I want so I can be a shop supervisor, means I'd be 27 when I graduated - Three years shy of 30.
Look, I'm not looking for sympathy or anything...When I discovered my passion for cars five years ago, it's all I've wanted to do for a living. I get an enormous satisfaction out of fixing something, especially if it's challenging. Do you know how prideful I feel driving my Jaguar? No, it's not because it's a Jaguar, it's because I spent over 60 hours of my life doing intricate work to make something run.
Because of the damage I've done to my body from drugs and alcohol in the past, I'm quite expensive. What I mean is I always need to be eating and I need to have money to pay for my fistful o' pills. It is the most stressful feeling in the world when you're up til 3 A.M. crunching numbers to try to make ends meet.
I can't even afford to take a freakin' girl out on a date. Yeah I constantly buy and sell Apples, but you know why? It's to pay for my pills and bills....I like that..."I need money to pay for the pills and bills..." Anyways I digress...
I want to make as much money as I possibly can before I go to trade school. I'd really like to stay here in Florida instead of moving back up North. It would be awesome to have this decent sized house and the drive? I'd like to get a motorcycle for that. It's all about priorities, and I'm sorry - A Liberal Arts degree seems pretty darned useless to me right now. Yeah if I was going to teach, or do something that involved more College education, it's a great start. Let's be realistic here guys, I'M GOING TO BE WORKING AT A DEALERSHIP. I'M NOT GOING TO GET ANY YOUNGER. I NEED TO (Bleep) OR GET OFF THE POT. I can't even study anymore, I can't. I feel like I'm wasting time, wasting valuable time that I need to actually better my life. I need something more than a piece of paper saying "Hey Jaguar, you wasted 6 years of your life listening to other people convince you to find another profession while trying to get this."
I want to make money, start a family, have a house of my own, and yeah maybe for a lot of people on here reading this you could say "Hey, it's 7 more months, finish it out." Sorry, I'm tired of being tired and weak all the time because I don't want to eat all of my dad's/fiancee's food that they buy (She quit her job btw lol.) because of my hypoglycemia....amongst other things....And no I can't live off of Pizza and Burgers either, or work and go to school and never sleep. I need sleep, a lot of it - or I get extremely weak. I know my mother is going to be extremely upset and disappointed in me because she paid for this semester of college, but you know what? I can't make everyone happy and that's all I've been doing throughout my whole life. Jaguar just does stuff to make other people happy. I want to do something that I WANT TO DO for a change.
Yes I'm skipping school tomorrow because I'm going to find a good job. I'm going to do good in my life finally. You know when I was the happiest down here in Florida? When I was getting freakin carts at Wal-Mart planning to go to trade school. But no I had to let my mother convince me and go back to college for some meaningless degree. That's my rant. Look maybe a Liberal Arts degree and finishing it means something to you guys, but look - I've had 6 years to think it over, and experience it. I'm at peace with not getting it.
P.S. : Looks like McCain is getting smoked, eh? Palin's $150,000 worth of clothes...*Shakes head* I'm not starting political stuff either...But man that woman has been nothing but a headache for that man ever since he picked her. And I'm not pro-Obama either...I'm a Libertarian...Ron Paul all the way...=\